Wednesday, May 10, 2006

That was a Really Short Boat Ride..

I am starting to really appreciate the name Iggy gave me..Yo Yo. Cause that is just what I feel like a Yo Yo.

Divorce..No Divorce..Poker..No Poker..He loves me..He hates me..

After surrendering to the yesterday's terms of not playing poker anymore. I had made some demands of my own. Of course, what I didn't realize was that I HAD NOT earned the right to make any demands. In order to have some demands, first I had to PROVE myself worthy.

So on the first day following our discussion, I try to call attention to the fact that he did not live up to one of his terms. He then clarified for me that he did not agree to anything. HE did not have to be accountable to me. I was the one who needed to change. Once I change, then I can make some demands. Needless to say, this did not go over well. And as the discussion progressed. He basically stated that he was DONE. I screwed up again. It is my fault for pushing. For expecting him to make changes. For not falling to his feet and kissing his behind. Well screw that!!!! He felt he was bending over backwards by giving me a chance to change. lmao...okay perhaps in dilerium...but crap..it just starts to be sooo pathetic that it is funny...

Oh..so guess what?....

Good news - I can do whatever I want including teach my kids to enjoy simple pleasure and not be spoiled rotten, play poker, hang with my online friends, go to Vegas, enjoy life and just maybe even be happy...
Bad news - I'm trying to figure out if there is a bad side...

So if you thought you missed that chance to play HU with the Poison....you no longer have to worry...cause the Poison is BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am gonna take a few days off..just to prove a point..that stupid test he made me take to PROVE that I am an ADDICT is just pure garbage....

This may be one of the classic deleted postings....catch it while you can...

Laters....

10 comments:

katitude said...

V, this pschological yo-yo-ing just plain sucks. Funny how they think that there's never anything wrong with them, eh? My thoughts are with you...it's a long road, but you'll come out the other end a much stronger person. Although a stronger HU player would be hard to imagine, lol!

kipper said...

When it rains it pours. ;)

FatBaldGuy said...

I wrote a comment on the last post, but didn't expect to actually be right. Sorry, but then again, maybe it is the best thing. Being a man, I know men are mostly buttheads.

SirFWALGMan said...

Poker > Marriage, I was right! heh. Good luck V. All this Waffling is not good, I should know..

jjok said...

I'm sorry about your troubles. I can only hope that things work out for the best for you.

That being said.....I still think I can take you down heads up.

joking.....

Anonymous said...

It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day-to-day basis.

CarmenSinCity said...

Glad to have you back! I look forward to meeting you in Vegas!

Tan said...

Hang in there V... our thoughts are with you. Stay strong.

Bloody P said...

Good to hang with you tonight on the girlie chat.

You'll come out of this better than ever.

BP

Hammer Player a.k.a Hoyazo said...

V, I know I don't know everything about your personal situation, but I have to agree with the other posters that you should not have to give up a hobby that you love if it's not hurting anyone or causing anybody any trouble. And the way it seems to have been brought up -- this whole business about you somehow needing to prove your worthiness by changing for him before he has to even listen to your requests, that just seems silly and wrong.

I'll say this -- it is truly crazy how many bloggers' significant others seem to have some serious problems with us playing and blogging as much as we do. I'm not talking about people who gamble the family's money away. I'm just taking about time spent playing, being an "addict", etc. I guess it may only be a matter of time before I get the dreaded "we need to talk" speech from my wife as well....That one won't be fun. For either of us.